Monday, November 22, 2010
Is it depression?
Well, I have been with my job taking care of dying patients for over a year. I remember in orientation they talked to us newbie's about going through some depression a couple of months after starting to work with families. I have been taking medication because after having my son I had postpartum depression so I never really had that work depression they had talked about during orientation. Well I haven't taken my meds for a couple of weeks now and I'm really feeling down. I yelled at my husband tonight because he doesn't help me as much as I would like around the house (ie. cleaning). So I laid in on him. Plus, I don't feel like he is in love with me, for example; He doesn't kiss me, hug me, he sleeps on the couch when he isn't working nights. He rarely talks to me. He is either playing his dumb ass video games, playing his stupid guitar, or playing on his cell phone/computer. I am so depressed I think I might just keep track of the times he talks to me tomorrow. Nothing like digging myself a deeper hole. I know no one is going to read this blog, probably because I'm a boring person. But its nice to get my feelings out. So that when I decide to get back onto my meds, I can read this again and know just how ridiculous this sounds. Oh, I'm about to throw my cat out of the window for knocking things around in my room.
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