and its May...

So the diet thing didn't take off quiet as I wanted it. But I did start back on Weight Watchers. Its almost been a week since I started and I've already lost 5 lbs. Now here is the trick for me, I have totally changed thinking badly about dieting. I have a better mind frame around this. It probably helps that I'm taking Zoloft. But so far so good.

Its been awhile since I've talked about my job. Have met some really awesome people. A family I had the honor of serving, this pt was on Dialysis for 8 years felt that it was time to quit. How does one come to that mind set where they know that stopping this procedure will have a dire effect on their life (e.i. death). Interesting enough this pt was awake enough in the first couple of days that we talked about everything. The one question that was burning in my soul I had to get the courage to ask. After spending time with this family and got to know them I felt comfortable with asking this to the pt, "why do you want to give up?" (I don't think it was actually what I said but simular) pt said "I feel like I'm a burden on my family"

Another family I've met brought their family member home from the hospital who had a weak heart and was also on dialysis. They the family collectively decided to discontinue the dialysis because pt was on his/her death bed. But when this pt defiled the odds and was brought home, the family didn't tell this person that he/she was going to die. I just don't understand families, maybe I don't know the whole story. I would never think of my family members as a burden. It makes me sad that people resort to stopping treatment because they either feel they are a burden or don't realize this is happening to them.